Yang Tersisa..

Hmm..

Tadinya gua masih bimbang apakah perlu menuliskan hal berikut ini apa kaga.

Tapi dipikir2, I need to keep a documentation.

Karena gua ngga yakin ingatan gua masih mampu mengingat kejadian yang gua alami di akhir tahun 2008 in years to come.

Huahaha :p

Tadinya mau nyimpen di kompie aja tapi gua selalu punya kekuatiran suatu saat kompie gua kena virus and semua data crashed *sigh*

Yaa.. Jadi sambil mendoakan supaya Blogdrive tetap jaya until the end of time, I decided to write this one down, hihihi πŸ˜€

Selasa, 30 Desember 2008

I went out with Michelle that day.

Actually ada sesuatu yang rada ‘aneh’ setelah gua pikir2.

Ini hari ke-3 berturut2 I went out with my best friends!

Dimulai dari hari Minggu tanggal 28 di mana gua pergi ama Gwen nonton ‘Madagascar 2 : Escape 2 Africa’ yang diakhiri dengan makan di Tamani Express.

Hari Senin tanggal 29 Desember-nya adalah acara DVD hunting with Sheryl di ITC Permata Hijau yang diakhiri dengan ngebakso di Bakso Lapangan Tembak, huehehe..

Naahh.. Hari Selasa-nya gua pergi ama Michelle ke SMS.

Setelah mengantar Michelle pulang, tepat di jembatan layang depan Trisaksi yang bersebelahan ama Untar, I received a phone call.

The person on the other hand delivered a message that according to her was a good news.

But right after I heard it, I had a mix feeling between anger, disappointed, sad, and all the others but happy.

I hung up the phone and many things came into my mind.

I even wrote down my desperation moment.

In a way I felt ungrateful for what I had.

But on the other hand, I felt so very upset!

I didn’t need what they bought for me. They knew it well enough what I wanted but just didn’t care enough.

I even wrote down to God that I was tired living with those people.

I was crying silently on my way home.

I let all the tears pouring out my soul.

This wasn’t just about the news I had just heard but also the accumulation of the supressed feelings all these years.

I was still feeling very upset by the time I got home.

I vaguely remembered but I guessed I continued my crying at home in my bed and talked about anything to God.

And somehow I guess God had answered my prayers.

Rabu, 31 Desember 2008

The first hours after I got up went normally until it was about 7 am that I felt like I wasn’t feeling well.

I felt cold and hot at the same time. I had a fever and the ketika dicek pakai termometer, the temperature was 40 degrees Celcius.

Guessed since that time I was kinda lost my conciousness.

Most likely I felt asleep.

And I dreamed.

Or was it real?

I couldn’t tell the difference.

There were 4 people or were they spirits?

Anywayy, these 4 ‘people’ offered me something.

They said that they could save all my family but in return, I had to join them.

Hmm.. Saved my family? From what? Were they in some kind of danger?

I refused the offer, deep down in my heart I felt like what they were talking about was something beyond danger because of manship.

I was able to collect all my family and kept them in somewhere safe.

Those 4 ‘people’ got mad at me, they threatened me that they would do things to make me change my mind.

And then I woke up.

And since that visit from those 4 ‘people’, gua mulai mengigau.

From all the repeated sentences I said over and over again, I remembered saying these things like :

Mami, aku sayang sekali sama Mami!

Mami, aku ga mau kalau ga ada Mami!

Mami, kita pasti menang, kita pasti menang, Mami, Tuhan udah janji!

And yes, I kept repeating those words over and over again, and some others that I chose not to write down here.

Funny thing is..

I kept asking about time.

To be exact, I kept asking how many hours left to reach 6 pm?

People in the house were asking me what about 6 pm?

I couldn’t answer them cause I didn’t know it either why 6 pm just popped in my head and came out of my mouth.

Gua rasa samar2 gua mendengar those 4 ‘people’ in my ‘dream’ saying that all these things would only happen until 6 pm!

Gua muntah beberapa kali dalam kurun waktu antara jam 7 pagi sampai dengan jam 6 malam itu.

I asked all the people in the house to pray for me one by one.

I even asked for the presence of my oldest brother to give me a pray.

And of course I kept asking about 6 pm.

My big brother came around 2 or 3 pm and he told my parents to take me to the hospital karena demam gua belum juga turun.

After refusing for couple of times, I gave up..

And they took me to the hospital.

By the time I got to the hospital, I was between conscious and unconscious, felt like some of my soul wasn’t in my body.

I didn’t pay any attention what they did to me in that emergency room.

Sepertinya mereka memasang infus dan menyuntikkan obat anti mual dan entah apa lagi karena ngga ada tenaga juga buat nanya :p

I still asked about 6 pm.

And my question made the people around me felt sad because I don’t know, maybe they think I couldn’t make it after 6 pm.

But somehow I knew the contrary that if I could make it until 6 pm then I would survive.

Menjelang jam 6, panas gua mulai menurun (gua rasa mereka menyuntikkan obat penurun panas dhe).

And ketika akhirnya koko kedua gua or Oom gua bilang kalau udah jam 6 pm (padahal sih katanya saat itu udah jam 6 lewat), gua tersenyum.

I guessed there was my first smile of the day, huehehe ^o^

And I said to my Mom :

Kita menang, Mami!

Menang dari apa?

Mana gua tau? Ahahaha.. Gua rasa menang dari those 4 ‘people’ in my ‘dream’ :p

Well, gua disuruh pulang ke rumah karena baru hari pertama panas jadi percuma aja kalau mau tes darah.

Pulang ke rumah masih berasa lemas bangets.

Sekitar jam 8, tubuh gua kembali panas dan mulai demam lagi.

Perlahan mulai memuncak jadi ke 40 derajat Celcius lagi.

Jadi the next day, right on the first day in 2009, gua kembali dibawa ke rumah sakit.

And kelanjutannyaa..

Yaa, you know khan, seperti postingan perdana gua di blog ini ^o^

Yah, begitulah kejadiannya.

Jadi next time I need to remember how God will never leave me, I just have to read this post πŸ˜‰

-Indah-

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2 Comments »

  1. ling Said:

    wuihh indah misi exist di tulis menulis. sakut dewh… ga keik akuw yg taik2 ayam πŸ˜€

  2. Indah Said:

    Psssttt.. Ling.. blog ini mah cuman copy paste dari postingan di Blogdrive, ahahaha :p

    Perhatiin aja ini postingan bulan Januari lhoo, ahahaha πŸ˜€


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